indeed.. thank God for good friends..

i always tot few ppl read my blog.. yesterday night when i was abt to slp.. mr spiderman sent me two really good songs.. and encouraged me a lot.. reminding me that we are still really good brothers and there are indeed friendships.. and yuen kay.. even though as irritating as ever asked if i was feeling ok too..
in the middle of the night.. tired.. demoralised.. upset..
there came words of encouragment.. songs of encouragement.. acts of friendship and love.. i was almost touched to tears..
the next morning even the ever worrisome gloomy mr marky came to ask if i was ok..
really.. much thanks to tin tin.. yuen kay.. marky.. mum.. and many others.. thanks..


i noe i m such a disappointment.. cause i was upset again today.. seeing other ppl doing the same thing we used to do with my good friend.. this sentence sounds confusing.. but thats the main point.. if u noe who is it.. good.. if not nvm.. i guess i will never talk abt it again.. the person would never know tat i m expriencing these things anyway.. who the person care? i dunno.. who cares..

i spent almost an hour stoning at the bleachers.. thinking abt stuff.. memories.. sigh.. saw 4 guys training ultimate freesbie.. and it reminded me abt friends.. how sometimes it is almost at reach.. just within my grasp.. so close.. yet at the crucial moment it deflected and missed it by inches...
so close..
yet so far...

my heart fills with memories of the past.. prehaps there shdnt be any in the first place.. to spare me of the heartache i experience now..

sigh.. shd any one be reading this.. dun worry abt me.. i m perfectly fine.. just trying to complain abt childish and immature stuff.. i m a selfish person.. worrying for others and yet refuses to allow others to worry abt me.. so please dun.. but thanks nonetheless..

i believe i will soon climb up of this pit of sorrow.. energised and strenghtened to brace for the new challanges ahead.. i m a survivor.. and i will survivor..

cheers..

without wax,
yihui