as long as i have music.

Friends hinders the process of making friends.
the product hinders process.
ironic?

maybe not.

my gp/pccg teacher once said that we should refrain from sticking to our usual friends during gp lessons all the time because it limits what we are exposed to. Same viewpoint. Same argument. Your scope becomes very narrow.

it applies to life too.

indeed. (as my arts math teacher's fave word goes)

I guess there are occasions where I wanted to bring my friendship with some people to a higher level, or in some other cases to revive to what is used to be.

but I realized I cant.

why?

cause. Their friends are too good. Spoil market, or so to say. haha.
well. Its just that they have such good friends themselves, and they are so close with them that there is just too little opportunities to upgrade our friendships. Or so to say.

but yet. if our friendships advances to a higher level, it denies others a chance to do the same, both to you and your friend.

confused confused. oh well.

well. anyways. Comfort zone. Who is always that willing to step out of it?

not me. I dun want to step out of my comfort zone all the time too. So I cant expect that from others.

"boundaries do not keep people out. They fence you in. You can spend your life drawing lines, or you can spend your life crossing them."

there are times we have to chose the right over the easy.
stepping out of my comfort zone is one example.

(I just stepped out of my room and I heard this phrase over the TV.)
(I will attempt to paraphrase)

"life is full trials and tribulations. These are things we cannot avoid nor can we determine the outcome. The only thing we can do is to face them courageously and to cherish what we have now."

indeed. (hah. I just love to use that word)

*well. Our friendship can probably never return to what it used to be. Probably never. But since there is nothing I can do to alter the outcome, the only thing I can do is to cherish. Yes cherish.*

I see a man.
someone I respect a lot.
struggling.
when he do not knows what lies in ahead.
Lord give him strength.
heal his pain.
give him hope.
I cannot see Your plan.
I don't know why things are going the way they are.
but there is nothing but to trust in You Lord.
give him strength.
I beg you.
strength to people around him.
so that we may all go through this together.

Lord hear my prayer for my little family,
the dearest friends I have in choir.

that you give strength to those who need them.
that you give hope to those who need them.
you give knowledge to those who need them.
you give peace to those who need them.
you give courage to those who need them.

Lord I pray not for a smooth journey in the years ahead. But that we will come together no matter what happens and deal with them together. So that we can all grow and mature, as you wish Lord.

Amen.

"I had a promise with you.
a promise that lasts forever.
with the rainbow as our witness,
it wouldn't change.
I want to sing for joy.
to rejoice for life.
creatures on earth sings of your love.
and the world proclaims your grace."

time flies. really.

it seemed just a moment ago when jie and i were still throwing sparklers into the pond. soon, she is getting married.

it seemed just a moment ago when me and yanli were still burning midnight oil with each other to complete hw. now she is taking her o lvls, and me, a lvls.

it seemed a just a moment ago when we and jonathan were still fighting water battles in class and ambushing anyone who go past that dangerous corner.

it seemed just a moment ago when me and alex were bickering in class. suaning each other. a photo of him carrying a baby now makes him look so fatherly.

it seemed just a moment ago when we were still fighting childish wars and were having immature discriminations, and i was a useless zuo bo peace keeping president. now everyone is in different schools.

it seemed just a moment ago when we were piaing hw in mac and eating lunch at the market. 3 dollar chicken rice add rice. yes. now, its market isnt even there anymore.

it seemed just like a monent ago when we were still playing basket ball none stop. the trainings.. the wonderful jersey. so called. =)

it seemed just like a moment ago when me and jonathan went to the drain to catch tadpoles.

it seemed just like a moment ago..
yes. seemed.
now. we are have all been scattered around. leading our lives. growing up. making new friends.
the transformation of lives as time goes by is certainly amazing. looking through photos of friends from friendster and see how they've changed.
-wow-
amazing. indeed. amazing.

i have to give credit to my 4/4 mates. people whom i spent my last two years in jurong. who fought the o lvls with me.

i must say our little class isnt all out exciting.
itsnt all out wonderful. nice and beautiful.
it isnt fascinating all the time.
and there isnt good times like all the time.
but. yes but.
it is still my class after all. the class i spent two years with. grew with. fought with. made friends. been through ups and downs.
but it is after all our class. our memories. our legacy. and every bit of it. good or bad, is precious to me.
it is something that no one can remove or deny. neither is it something that anyone can try to replicate.
its one and only. yes.
one and only.

to all 4/4 mate. i thank you.
for the friendships.
for the good times.
for the bad times.
for the fun times.
for the unbearble times.
for the laughter.
for the quarrels.

every bit of memory. every friendship forged. every lesson learnt. i thank you. i cherish them.
from the bottom of my heart. i wish you the very best, in whatever you do, wherever you are.
may God bless you richly and all the best for your future endevours.

p.s i have some photos so those who want can get from me. =)

a rather familar tune ran through my mind. prehaps something that mean a lot to us fourfourians. it goes like this..

"you are my sunshine, my only sunshine .
you make me happy, when skies are grey.
you never know dear, how much i love you.
please dun take my sunshine away."

-wonderful music sang by mr ching-