Spiritual battles.
How many of us have that kind of experience? I'm not referring to spiritual battles like a mental struggle when tempted to do something wrong. Like should i tell a lie or that sort.
I'm talking about something more eerie, something "supernatural" as one may refer as.

I purchased a book called Ghosts, A Christian's encounter a few hours ago written by Ravi Pillai, a diplomat working in the ministry of foreign affairs. i bought this book because, well, i have had such encounters before, and i wanted to see what this book has to offer with regards to such a topic. Well i completed the book in one seating, page after page, chapters after chapters, with goosebumps and shivers down my spine every few minutes.

pardon me for being a timid man, but i must admit that i have never been a brave soul when it comes to dealing with such matter. His encounters with the paranormal seemed so real to me, but its not just fear that grips me, but also the fact that he remains victorious amidst over powering odds that amaze me. The fact that God is God, and His power is all that matters.

I've had my share of ghostly encounters, but not as tangible as the ones that challenged the author's faith.

I remembered one night when i woke up in the middle of the night, and felt a powerful force holding me down. Well, i couldn't see anything of course, but some how i just knew at the back of my head that an evil force was acting against me.

i was naturally petrified. i couldn't move, and i don't exactly know what was going on. i laid there on the bed and i prayed and prayed. I was begging for His deliverance and grace while i cried and broke out in cold sweat. i sang hymns and kept calling out for His name, because that was the only thing i could have done.

after a while, all was calm and quiet. whatever that was there left as quickly as it had came. i sat upright with tears still in my eyes and body full of sweat. and i sat there thanking the Lord all night.

-That- is just one of my few encounters.

well i must admit that i have been a rather weak christian. even though i grew up in a christian family, my walk with God, my relationship with Him wasn't very strong. and it is especially so now, that i have left the christian environment in AC, and left to fend for myself in a hostile environment like the army. I have done a lot of thing that i know i shouldn't have, and i am -still- making the same mistakes i vowed not to commit the day before. i would pray for forgiveness on one day, only to fall again on another.

well this post serves to remind myself and friends reading this entry, that spiritual battles can be, at times, very real, scary and "movie-like". It is important to live each day holding on tight to His hands, for we would never know when will we have to face such challenges.

i am embarrassed that i have more than often flee from battle out of fear. i have forgotten to fix my eyes upon the Lord, and succumb to the enemy. i must admit the many sins that i have committed, and i sincerely pray for strength, courage and faith, and i hope that my friends can pray for me as i attempt to repair my relationship with God, and as i seek to walk with Him every day in my life. And i too will pray for all my friends, that you may seek peace and courage in Him every day, that we may shine and His beacon of truth and light.

To God be the Glory.

"God had not given me the spirit of fear, but of love and of power and i sound mind"
2tim 1:7