as long as i have music.

just reached home after watching harry potter, seven dollars well spent i guess. good grahpics.. thrilling scenes.. beautiful girls (hehheh).. and most importantly, i walked out being assured once again.
well. this show showed prehaps many of the things we experience in life. problems of friendships. distrust. relationships. not daring to confess our feelings. not daring to show the true side of us. putting a false front at times... like saying that we dunch wanting someone's company but actually we wanted it terribly.
trials. like the competition. prehaps not that life threatening. but too times where we are challanged. unexpectedly. where we have to compromise wad we want. make decisions. just like harry deciding who to save under the water. to save his friend or to get the trophy.
these are things that we have to face again and again in life.
decision decision decision.
well. but throughout the show, harry showed the true meaning of friendship. of courage. of determination (of course).

friendship.
about not leaving anyone behind. doing everything..even at the expense his own life.

courage and determination.
despit knowing that he have little chance against the evil lord, he fought with courage and determination. not giving up without a fight. not saying no. not surrendering.

the trials and tribulation have not only failed to corrupt him but furthur brought forth his determination to do the right thing.

yes. i noe there are people around me who are going through their bad patch of life. i had my fair share too. there are times where we have no clue wad to do next. sometimes we question overselves. we waver at the decisions made. we doubt our capabilities. we thought of giving up.

yes. giving up.

i brought home with me this phrase.

difficult times lie ahead.
there will be time where we have to make a decision between the right way or the easy way.
but your friends are here.
you are never alone.

(well.. something like that. i do not possess photograhpic memory)

yes. indeed. how true. to all those out there. facing their difficult moments. making decisions. you are never alone . for i am with u too. as the lord is with all of us.

never alone.

was wondering why there were so few choir ppl online. then remembered that most are out.. movie.. shopping trips.. etc. having fun.

well. ben stayed over my hse yesterday. and its really bad for us to go out together, cause we really spend tooooooo much. nv spend so much time in such a short period of time doing stupid things. haha. anyways i m too ashamed to admit how much we spend, but i have to really selfground these few days.

anyways it was rather fun, we stayed up late.. dling songs.. watching choir photos.. chatting online, feasted like kings.

and we went to play pool with a few other ppl too. limin, charissa, mark, vic, and we even had an ultimate sop sl vs tenor sl. it was a tie cause it took too long to end and we decide not to finish the game. but of course its not difficult to guess that the tenors were gentlemanly as usual and i m sure ben gave way slightly.. haha. =)

its fun. but really got to settle down and start working on some stuff..cant waste the whole hols like that right? probably have to look through scores again later to prepare for rehearsals tmr.
singing at kkmc, heard its a wonderful place to sing.. yay! its always a joy to sing.

so to anyone reading this.. enjoy ur hols! =)

feeling much better today=)

muchth thanks to ben for trying to cheer me up today.. and mum for talking to me.. even though she didnt even noe i was in a bad mood.. and let me online waiting.. as usual =)

an attempt to organise swimming failed.. jontang is too tired after morning training.. joel wasnt sure if we were swimming and made plans to study in sch today.. ben needed to rest and practise the hymm.. steph got something on.. and minglong.. probably too lazy to even reply.. haha..
but i went swimming instead.. in the rain..
yes yes
i noe i shdnt do that.. but the rain came suddenly..
i went for a jog when i thought that the rain has stopped. but when i started running it started to drizzle again.. and it began to pour. i was determined to finish at least one round (which is 1.2km only) and continued despite the heavy downpour and finished in a very slow 6 plus min timing. the rain was simply too heavy for me to continue.
it kinda affected my throat a little. all the panting in the cold wind and rain. but i will be fine after a good rest.
have been listening to lots of song recently.. and am simply in love with il divo's o holy night.. simply lovely and wonderful. its a must hear.
oh.. i have been listening to blue moon too..
but its.. at its worst! =) u nv noe how bad it can be till you heard it.. haha..
yes. its another an eventful day. wonderful hols. its time to start working soon though.. =)
so till then.. i shall enjoy the wonderful version of o holy night..
by il divo..

trying really hard not to fall into the depressed mood these few days. maybe mum is right.. exposing myself to all the negative emotions by my friends has taken its toll on me.. and i m trying really hard not to slip back into those bad days.. was sitting at the bleachers after choir today.. and just felt sad.. ok.. no really that bad.. bleachers is a wonderful place nonetheless.

well.. seriously have no idea wad i m upset abt.. no bgr to worry abt.. no exams.. its shd be fun! but i m not really fully into the fun mood yet..

maybe its just my insecurities that is bugging me again.. i have always been insecure abt my friendships since a long time ago.. many times i often wonder how much i mean to my friends.. there are times i guess where someone means a lot to me.. and i really do everything i could to be the best possible friend.. but i am just someone of lesser importance to that individual.. no reason why.. just like that.. i just do not mean as much to that person as he or she is to me..

i wonder who realised that i was in a lousy mood today? who really bothered in the first place?

right.. i m suffering from the limmy syndrome..

i guess these are the times where i really qn myself if i shd really give all out to really be the best i could.. as a friend of course..

and its not just friendship.. its applies in singing.. in studies.. no matter how hard i work.. i am not comparable to someone.. it fustrates me to noe that equivalent trade does not apply in life. why bother working for them then?

i noe that is of course the wrong attitude.. and anyone reading this.. the rare few.. dun worry.. i will be fine soon.. promise.. too much to do an improve to wallow in self pity.

there are many other things that contribute to this bad mood.. for one, bad hair day.. i went to get a hair cut.. and walked out looking like a punk who booked out from army.. *now whole lot of u pumping position down!*

my singing hasnt been really improving too.. i have been working too much on the wrong techniques and i just cant seem to get it right? and i have lots of trouble getting the jumps.. the fourths.. four and a half semi tone jumps.. and madam tries really hard to teach.. (thanks madam) its really irritating to noe ur mistakes but just cant get the right method and correct it.. carolling is round the corner and i dun feel that i have the capacity to perform well yet. everyone is excited abt the junior comming in.. but i dun feel that i have the skills to impart yet.. fustrating indeed..

but nonetheless.. like i've always said.. the tenors never give up..
never.
ever.

likewise.. i m just complaining.. tmr i would probably forget eveything and go around behaving like a retarded animal.. life is wonderful after all! =)

besides.. there are wonderful music.. there is this group called il divo which david charles introduced to me.. and they sound really good. i simply love the version they sang for o holy night.. it is simply heavenly when they resolve a chord near the ending.. *not sure if thats how u explain it..* its a must hear.

christmas is coming too! wonderful season.. carolling.. getting fitter.. presents.. outings.. stayovers.. yay yay! =)

bsides op is over! i can finally throw everything away.

so wad is my hols plan?

1) revision
2)clean and maybe rerenovate my room
3)sing and get fitter
4)exercise and lose weight *determined not to let those idotic teachers suan me next year*
5)play play play play play play

wonderful huh?! =)

oh well.. thats of course if i have time..
if.. =)

sigh...
after struggling for quite a few days.. i have decided to blog.. have been in a lazing around mood.. dun really feel like blogging.. events that happens just flew past...
but i guess i dun really want this blog to die.. so i shall attempt to write some stuff down.
one thing i have been doing just now.. not really.. but trying to.. was to read mum's blog.. i guess its not difficult to guess why i used the word try.. cause once again... ONCE AGAIN.. i cant really understand what she is saying.. cant really comprehen what goes through her mind.. too complicated for a simple mind like mine.. the familar fustration of being unable to help her and share her woes surface once again.. she is such a great friend.. someone who mean so much to me.. yet i cant help her.. feel quite useless.. but i guess the only thing i can give her.. and to other friends.. is my support.. the very few things left that i can give.. to reciprocate so much that i have receive..
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ok.. choir.. a bunch of tenors stressed-up-but-refuse-to-give-up-tenors. the fact that we lack in numbers.. the challenging high notes.. and our quite lousy singing.. has its effect on us.. madam have been demanding for exponential growth.. and sometimes its really difficult..
but hello! u are talking abt the tenors here for goodness sake.. we dun give up that easily... cheering each other on.. helping and supporting each other.. in our attempt to change our image we have change our cheer.. using both hands instead of pinkie and shouting why wait in the coolest manner. we'll muddle through some how.. =)
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had a casual outing at deb's hse.. watching movie.. chasing the ice cream man so that we can eat ice cream and the wonderful mee siam her mum cooked.. playing piano, guitar.. singing.. playing cards and fooling around with a deflated mini basket ball.. then we had dinner at jp.. pizza hut and was chatting at our fav hang out coffee bean! it was great and we had a really fun time..
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the heat is on.. op op op op op.. i am still a little lazy.. but really gotta work on everything.. double up!
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i just saw stephen's friendster's pic.. ACT COOL! wa liew.. that flirt.. who u trying to attract now huh.. hur hur.. just kidding..
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ok.. i m am lazy. shant type anymore.. sec 4s.. j2.. all the best for ur exams! u can do it!
till then.. see ya!=)