as long as i have music.

i have just been amazed, touched and blessed by a blog.
my friend's friend's blog. yea.
the things she shared in her blog makes my entry pale in comparison.
And you know how some ppl like to complain abt their lives, their woes and gossip about everything under the sun. yet this amazing entry written by that person just stood out from all other entries i have read before in other ppl's post.
and i am thankful for her sharing, even though i dont know her.
Thanks Jofid. =)
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anyways,
one portion of her sharing was about the event that was recorded in the bible, about the adultress who was brought forth to Jesus by the pharisees. And Jesus told the crowd, " he who is without sin, let him throw a stone at her first."
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There are always people out there who are so unlovable, so irritating, and so yuks.
But who are we to judge?
Who are we to condemn?
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when there is hatred, let us sow love.

well. i just saw this on the tv.
it was a conversation between a guy, a girl and a fish.
the two of them were bakers,
and they were super stressed out over a cake they have to prepare.
so the girl pretended to talk to the fish in a fish tank.
"hey fish, you are having so much fun and freedom swimming happily in the tank, swimming freely while we slog here day and night."
the guy told the girl " do you know what is the fish's reply? it will say you have the freedom of being outside the tank, so why are you complaining?"
well, the conversation was in chinese, hopefully my translation works. =)

I was looking outside the window a moment ago..
in the dark blue sky a full moon shone brightly..
its mellow warm light radiated in the sky.
you know how Chinese always relate full moon as reunion.
and today the moon shone brightly,
as my family just came back from tour.
welcome home my dear family. =)

Finally I am eighteen.
Like hamstarface I was probably expecting myself to be eager and excited about it,
But it kinda was just another ordinary day, with lots of well wishes, gifts and etc from friends.
But it has been an interesting birthday.
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Well, received a card from my know-each-other-so-well until-rotten friend enci, and church friends got me a super big water bottle. Received a pen and a card too. So my afternoon was spent with my church friends who had a great time torturing me.
Well, its like this.
We have this tradition of making the birthday boy/girl eat fries using their mouth, with the fries stuck on top of a sundae. So ever birthday we tried to push the fries further and further down, so that the person would have problems getting it out.
This time, they went for the extreme. They placed the fries in the cup before having the sundae on top, and I had to dig and do all sorts of unglamorous things to get them out, with ice cream all over my face.
Thanks people. =)
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Anyways, as usual, pleasantly surprised by some,
disappointed by others, but nonetheless a great day.
Just received a small video Chars the great made for me,
which she spend half of it boasting abt herself. haha.
Thanks anyways pal.
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so yup. This marks the end of this special day.
a little older, a little wiser,
one year nearer to death,
yet one more year of beautiful memories added to my life.
cheers. =)

I survived without being tau pok, stripped, raped, and anything close enough.
THANK GOODNESS!
Haha.. kinda expected it to come from my classmates.. but thankfully roy decides to give me a break this year. He was chasing me all around school last year.
But anyways, i have a great pre birthday celebration.(since my birthday is on sunday)
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Well, i kinda know something is going to happen when Enci started acting weirdly when i said i didnt wanted to go to the library today.(thats when you help to plan so much birthday surprises)
So anyways, the class peeps, lead by my wonderful classmates Marilyn and Qin Yi got me a cake from coffee bean! And a birthday balloon, knowing that that is the last thing i would want to have. Haha. when it comes to planning birthdays, i always tell them to get those big birthday balloons which can be rather embrassing to carry around. A teacher convinently calls it "wish-me-its-my-birthday"
Yep. so they sang me a birthday song, made me carry the balloon all around. Thankfully there is only geo lecture today, and the cake was great!
Love you guys. Thanks so much for preparing everything.
Oh ya. they also got me a small shower kit and hand washing soap so that i will stop diluting my sweat after exercising.. heh..
Haha..
They know me well.
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And my wonderful tsl gotten me a chicken essence for teenagers, in CHINESE.
so yup. more work to do.. heh. thanks bro!
Yup, and my 3 little kids got their dad a cool looking shirt which ATTEMPTS to explains what goes through a dad's mind.
Which is not very true kids!
But the shirt is still cool! And i LOVE it.
Haha. i love my 3 kids.
Ever full of love, energy, smiles.
And the smiles on their faces are the best gift i receive everyday.
Jon, Deb, Frances.
Love you kids.
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And i had lunch with a few of the choir ppl,
deb, jon, vic, joel, ben, steph.
thanks for having lunch with me. =)
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how i wish the tour choir ppl are here celebrating with me,
But i've just received the best present from them.
I've just received some good news..
So.... YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GO TOUR CHOIR!
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*click*(switching off the lights)
*drags tired body to bed*
*handphone vibrates* (msged received)
the name reads : lim hui.
0.0
*checks again*
*yay!!!!*
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I was about to drag my tired and sore body(after all the napfa training) when i received this special msg from limmy aka mom who is now currently in London.
The msg reads, 'hey son, just thought of you guys back home, again. i think of all of you everytime we sing. hope all is well back home. we are all fine here. take care.'
Even though i havent been studying a lot compared to some of my friends who have much more to cover, i am already quite tired of studying. And sometimes when i am studying alone i feel so tired and unmotivated. Yet this simple msg that traveled accross the distance rejuvernates me with joy, happiness and strenght.
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Some may say its stupid to feel so much for a 12 day departure.
Yet to me, it is the feeling on connectedness that is missing.
And its the little things these people around me do every single day that brightens up my life, such that their 12 day departure makes a big difference, at least for now.
yet such a simple and short connection, a simple message, can be full of love, care and concern.
its good to know that they are doing well there, and really hope that they continue to learn and grow along the way.
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seperated by miles of seas and land.
parted by time difference and location,
i've come to realised that we are very much connected nonetheless actually.
we may be miles apart, but our passion, heart, thought, spirit remains as one.
they maybe working hard fighting their 'battle', we are here fighting ours.
And we stay steadfast, knowing that we are there for each other, praying for one another.
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i cant wait for their return.
to hear about the little interesting adventures they had.
to know how they fared.
to see how much they have grown.
to have those little imps around sch.
to have the j2s back fighting this battle with us.
to tell them how much we miss them.
all of us.
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the thing that struck me in that msg was 'we think of you guys all the time when we sing'
yea. music. special huh.
we may not be singing here back home.
but we will always have music in our heart.

Have you ever tried lying on someone else's back for support?
Well, it occurred to me that you can give without receiving,
And you can't receive without giving.
If you put too much pressure, your friend cant support you.
But if you think you are exerting much pressure, and decides to lean back,
You can't support your friend.

That reminds me of friendship.
You cant give without receiving.
And receive without giving.

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It has been two and a half day since tour choir left for tour.
On the Friday morning which they left, i saw Heng Yi around in school.
We were randomly chatting, and he told me, "I miss the j1s."
Me too.
Haha.
Its just 12 days for goodness sake!
Well. To me, its not just about them being not around with us,
Or not being to be in London right now,
But what i really wanted is to be with them, the tour choir, experiencing what they are going through WITH them.. guiding them.. bonding with them..
Experiencing the magic with them.
"You have to learn to let go" deb told me.
Haha..
But it just different without familiar faces around.
No Limmy to correct my grammar.
No Mark to gay around with.
No Clement to tell me the little interesting things that happened during the day.
No Ming Long for us to make fun of, to hear him sing suddenly in class.
No Marcus to tell me how the tenors are faring.
No Germaine to seek my professional translation services.
No Andrea to talk about all sorts of things.
No Zihan to 'bully'
No teachers around to say hi to.
Just for 12 days.
I am so jealous that the 4 j2s can be there to share the moment with them.
Praying for you guys!
Do us proud. Not by excelling others, but excelling yourself!
We'll be praying..
And maybe it's time for me to focus on the reason why i am not on tour.
STUDY.
I am making progress. =)