as long as i have music.

yep. I haven't been blogging for a really long time. miss me? haha.

quick update for all, I've finally gotten my braces off! (yays and cheers!)
it feels really weird not to have them in your mouth after having them there for one and a half years.
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apparently, holidays are much more tiring then exams. in fact I am starting to lose the weight I have gain over the studying period. not because I am dieting or exercising. but just because I am so busy.
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3 church camps, 200 plus kids in total.
NOW I know why staying single is an attractive option.
cause kids don't treat you like human beings.
they treat you like toys.
hugs, kisses, are good.
but when they start throwing you around and tearing you apart..
haha..
and the worse thing is, they never get tired. NEVER.
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choir party was fantastic.
the food was just amazing. yup amazing. 5 starts.
the games were good. (ming long and his biggest tummy!)
Santa chorks was around.
and its just great to see friends whom you probably haven't seen around for a very long time.
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well, so besides that, my hols have been filled with loads of outings, dates, driving lessons, etc.
busy busy busy, exhausted exhausted exhausted.
but I guess I have been doing some thinking recently.
not that I don't use my brain most of the time,
but ya, here comes the emo part. haha.
I was looking through the tones of photos I had, and from heng yi's blog.
and truely what amazing friendships we've forged.
and its just amazing to have friends where you can be truely yourself.
but well I guess a part of me wonder how long these friendships can last.
I guess its a growing process to accept the fact that human relationships are fragile.
quoting a friend, relationships are fragile to remind us that only God is forever there.
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I don't doubt my friends.
in fact, I trust their heart.
but there are just many instances where friendships just sort of fade away.
its not really gone, but its not as strong as before.
not as vibrant, not as beautiful, not as exciting.
friends whom I thought I would hold dear to for the rest of my lives.
but now we're just left with HIs and good byes.
friends I used to spend so much time with.
now we don't even talk that often.
it really does happen really really often doesn't it?

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does that mean I will be sad and MELANCHOLIC, and lose faith in friendships?
definitely not!
in fact I'm gonna cherish even more.
I know I love these people, and since I cant promise that I'll be there with them forever.
I'll give them everything I have now.
and of course to build a stronger relationship with God.
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right. Yes. Hope that isn't too emo. Please don't read it if you don't like emo stuff.
or ramblings.
yihui is just pondering about life. haha. Yea right.
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oh. I realised that some friends are rather concerned with my marital status. single that is.
nothing else.
not to worry, I am not gender-confused.
please don't help me look for a partner.
the Lord will provide.
besides, I am too immature for one. wouldnt want to hurt others and myself.
and I am not very much wanted.
haha. world peace. (quoting esther)
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anyways. I am sending out an appeal to anyone who would like to redo my blog for me.
don't be mistaken yihui(f), your design is good. but since geeks like geoff prefer something better I guess I can change a style to suit them. =)
since I am an it idiot. some one please offer to come up with something nice.
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went for photo shoot sessions with the pro today, tired but enjoyed myself.
so here are some photos for sharing. and to show off a little of my lousy skills. ironic.
anyways. enjoy.

i have been really bored. so was playing around with my camera.
here's some pictures! for the fun of it.

behind the curtains

handphone accessory

A life heroic. wonderful note from deb
stormy day

3 tone sky

yes. A's is finally over. for me at least. So those who are still working at it keep going! haha..

well, i found post a levels activities more tiring than preparation for the exam itself.
haha, oh well.

anyways, just sent a great friend sisi off, a chinese scholar who i have spent quite a lot of time with together cause we have lots of similar free periods. a great friend with a great heart and a big smile. well, i probably wouldnt see her in the near future, but thats where sci and tech comes in i guess. i'm going to miss you pal! =)

speaking abt that, i miss geoff. haha.. and the other choir seniors all over the world.
and of course thinking abt those in my batch who will be leaving soon too.
sigh. haha.. late night emo-ness.

anyways, i've found deb fung's cd, which i wanted to get for quite some time already, and there is a song i would like to share with everyone. its in her first album i think, and its called eternity. clemon posted her video on his blog a few entries ago.

ya, this song goes out to all my friends, and especially non christian friends.
that YOU are, whoever reading this, the apple of my eye.
this is my song, my prayer, for you.

eternity.

my friend you are, the apple of mine eye, light of my heart.
i dont know if you know how much, you mean to me.
each day i pray for you, that Jesus reaches you.
for you know that, i want you with me in eternity.

i see your heart, and i believe in you.
you set apart, for the One who made you made me.
crossed path with you, as we do life together.
can you just always remember, i am here for you.

when you feel tired, when you feel lonely, uninspired.
lift your eyes to heaven, there, friend is you comforter and strenght.
when you rejoice in blessing,
something in you might start guessing that God is watching over you

if i had failed to show you accurately, i'm in love with a God who loves me more than anything
and it's not like he has choosen to favour me, i was just blessed to have someone to share his love with me.

my friend you are,
the apple of my eye.
cheers.

Once Again

Dear Lord, once again i have strayed,
Away from your love,
Into the sea of darkness,
surronded by valleys,
facing the giant.

Tired, lost, confused, helpless
Cold, devasted, broken.

But amidst the echoes or taunts and laughter,
I hear a voice i can never forget.
The same voice that's always there time and time again.
The voice of deliverance, the voice of truth.

So Lord i call out to you once again,
I'm on my knees to ask you to carry me again,
That i may soar on your amazing grace,
Hold your hand and never let it go again.
And to sing for joy and not cower in fear,
Only for your glory Lord, your glory.

So Lord grant me strenght to hold out my hands,
That i may hold on to yours and never let go.
Daddy God, forgive me and lead me,
Once again.
Once again.
Once again.